EDIT: [link] <- my new video~~ ^^


urghh i need to vent~~ *not very important ^^*

i think the last few weeks have been TERRIBLE i'm not sure if its because its winter months now i'm just all depressed.. since i was like this around the same time last year too.. o.O.. hmmn..
anywhoo~~ basically everyone seems to be really depressed around me these past weeks annd then you got me topping everyone and going all emotional and suicidal >.< .. i swear if i spend another christmas locked up i'm probably gonna kill myself after.... (yayy the old me is back~! lol the much more depressing violent video gaming girl is back~)
anywhoo last few weeks.. i've had people randomly throwing testubes at me, people breaking my violin strings while i'm not paying attention, my sketches being ripped and thrown away, i've started falling over more often again annd my health hasn't been too good again and i can't get a check up until january >.< annd i can't do carol singing with my friends because i have stupid music school, annd the few people that always make me happy don't know what to do with me in my current state >.< such a horrible week.. OOOH annd on sunday i fell down from my churches choir loft landed on my arm.. i managed to text my friends who were downstairs but they FORGOT me.. annd half an hour later i managed SOMEHOW to get down the stairs, goe told my mum, got rushed to hospital annd i was JUST lucky.. no bones broken annd i was CLOSE to it being fractured annd now i have this stupid wrist support to keep my arm in place ....LOL .. keep my arm in place.. OOH annd PE was interesting the crash matt had fallen on top of me after a super rough game of basket ball and everyone decided to dog pile me >.< NOT good for my legs oor the rest of my body for that fact o.O... *health report didn't turn out so we O_o.. i don't know HOW i could possibly have a long life ¬_¬*
OOH ANND SUPER LATEST UPDATE: i got mugged today~ actually.. the two guys that tried to failed.. soo nothing got stolen BUT i did get beaten up! yayy¬_¬..

kay.. i shall try to bring some good news up now.... my friend drew a picture for me at school ^^ i find it sweet, its cheered me up slightly until it got down to us all being depressed.. my support for my wrist is allowed to come off tomorrow or saturday buutt because i keep removing it i'm most likely gonna have to wear it another week...
oooh !! and i have a new video!! mainly since i used it to vent.. ^^' i'll post links up when i finsh uploading annd such.. i'm going crazy with this one.. actually.. i'm quite scared to upload it since its IS based on not true events but thoughts annd words that i may have said with another someone ... annd yeahhh.. i'm dying to upload.. just don't want to be hated by him.. >.< .. .

OOOH anyone played kingdom hearts 358/2 days yet? lol they finally started airing the ad *got it when it came out and finished in 4 hours* ....anyone else think roxas needs to get his priorities straight when talking with xion? i mean i understand nobodies have no feelings but .. ICE CREAM?! lool i absolutely love that scene now.. bless little roxas XD he's like a small child unable to focus on the MAIN points XD
those who don't know WHAT the hell i'm going on about [link] lol spoiler..ish? i knew this was gonna happen anyways.. XDD


oh well ~ outtie

ooh i'm gonna edit later with my new video link soo~~ keep an eye on this post~